Fibromyalgia and chronic pain conditions are awfully lonely ailments to live with. Not many people know that millions of people live in nearly constant pain. It is not common knowledge. In fact, although fibromyalgia has been around for numerous years, it has only been almost fully accepted within the last few years. Most of the time if you were to tell someone that you had fibromyalgia they would look at you like you have 8 heads. So even if it is accepted by the medical community, it is still not a condition that is widely known by everyday people. Of course, once you are diagnosed, your family may become more knowledgeable about it if you are lucky. They might try to do some research and learn the most they can about it, but most won't. Though, in my own opinion, if they truly cared they would make an effort to at least educate themselves about your condition and how it affects you. But, on the other side, it is also our responsibility to help them become more educated about our condition. This is the hard part! There are some resources out there with things you can print off for your family members, but most do not really touch on what it is really like to live with chronic pain. So what can we do? We could make our own pamphlet with all the information we feel is relevant to our situation. We could write a poem or letter to our family members. We could draw what we think chronic pain looks like. We could write a song or prepare some sort of speech. Whatever your talents are focus on that to get you started. If you are good at drawing, start there. Let's create some amazing informational pieces for family members that millions of people could use to help them describe what it is like. Let's raise awareness! If you know of any great resources, please share.
Really, one of the first tasks to tackle after being diagnosed is to talk to your family and friends. This sounds so simple, but yet it is one of the most difficult things to do. I struggle with this every day. One thing we always worry about is that we won't be taken seriously. This usually stems from the years it takes to even get a diagnosis and the years we felt misunderstood and ignored by our doctors, family members, and friends. We could have spent years of our lives being thought of as lazy, crazy, or as hypochondriacs, I know I did. Those were the most difficult years of my life, and I just learned to change the way I relate to people including becoming more closed off about my illness. Besides feeling misunderstood we also don't want to complain to people. When we do talk about it, we assume that the person having to listen to us thinks we are only complaining and whining about our misfortune when really, we just need to vent, to be heard. We worry that we will put extra burden on our loved ones by telling them about it. We don't want to make others worry about us or feel sorry for us, we just want understanding. Mostly, we don't want to hurt people, and we know that the people that love us hurt when they know we are suffering. It isn't easy on them either. Watching the one you love suffer and not being able to do anything to help. I imagine it is a harsh reality for them as well. So, not only does our illness cause us to suffer, but also those around us as well.
If you broke your leg or have some sort of skin condition, there is at least some story behind it or some physical evidence of it being there. People can see it. You have a cast that is visible and often other people have broken something and can relate in some way, or they might even ask about it. It is not like that with an invisible illness. For the most part, nobody has any idea you even have a chronic illness. Nobody is going to ask about something they do not know about. Nobody is going to say, "Oh, how much longer until you are all healed up?" (and if they did, we would probably get a bit bent over the comment). There is no healing of chronic conditions. They are just that, CHRONIC, meaning long-term, FOREVER! It will not go away, and it cannot be cured. Yes, there are things that can help some, but it is something we will live with for the rest of our lives. The pain, the fatigue, the brain fog, the unbearable twitching, and wreathing, and crawling, and stabbing sensations. The bowel irritability, the depression and anxiety spells, the exertion intolerance, the hundreds of symptoms. Those are not going away. In a way, we learn to live this way. We teach ourselves how to ignore the pain and twitching. We learn how to hide our symptoms. We learn how to get around and space out our days. We learn what helps and what doesn't. Honestly, chronic illness is very time consuming. It is amazing how much effort and time goes into trying to make yourself feel just a little bit better. Hours and hours every month spent in doctors' offices, physical therapy, and other therapies. Not to mention the amount of time we spend trying to learn as much as possible about your particular illness. I don't know about you all, but I spend hours learning about all of my illnesses and trying my best to find things that can help me more. I like to be educated about whatever I am dealing with, so much of my time goes into that.
In all reality, it's not like you can strike up a conversation about pain. Nobody really wants to talk about pain or unfortunate situations. It is only in our nature to avoid subjects involving pain and unpleasantness. Besides, trying to talk about our unpleasant symptoms only makes other people feel uncomfortable. We see it, and we really try not to make people feel uncomfortable with us. We feel as if we are dragging our loved ones down with us. This is not something we want to do. Hence the reason we typically just stay quiet about it. There is no sense in making other people awkward and uncomfortable along with us. Why drag others down with us? But, what happens when we avoid talking about our situation for extended periods of time? Well, we go bat-shit crazy is what happens.
We tend to start secluding ourselves from the outside world for fear of the pain brought upon ourselves and others. We fear pain so much that it controls every waking decision of our lives. We start obsessing on how to make ourselves better. We hide from our friends and family so they don't find out how bad it really is. We fight tooth and nail to make it through the rough times, and we use every bit of energy trying to get well again knowing that it may never happen. We loose ourselves in the midst of our illness.
If we do not find some sort of way to communicate, our illness can and will consume us. So, I suppose that whether or not we are perceived as whining, lazy, hypochondriacs we have got to speak up and speak out. Write a poem, a speech, a letter. Make a blog, a diary, a craft collection. Raise awareness and don't be ashamed. Attend a support group, or create a chronic illness event. Do what makes you happy and allows you to have a voice. Let's stop being ashamed, scared, and secluded. Let's find a cure!
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